10/12/2013

not good in communication, sometime just like to be alone and stay at corner.

may be this is the community, friends not friends, just passby.

why so serious

Nowdays i'm too emotional and my brain going to freak out, thinking negative, emotional, some more feel like wanna gone off from this world.....

Too big Too far...cant even catch up my future dream...

Too scared Too timid....cant even step forward...

Depression

family

family always my rely on

every time i'm lost, every time i'm gloomy...

although our distance between M'sia and Taiwan

just one call, one talk

everything gone alright ;)

i can lost everything but NOT family

I LOVE MY FAMILY

much!! words cant express!!

i miss my home much NOW! i wish i can back home now ;'(

miss those time mummy will help me solves everything...

but now i have to done everything by myself, solve every troblesome things....

always blessed in family hugs ❤

長大.. 越迷茫...

長大了 ...

再也不要求生活中夢幻般的戀愛 帥氣白馬王子 華麗城堡 成千上萬的服飾配件

要求的只是簡簡單單平凡生活

平凡愛情 平凡人類 平凡住家 平凡衣物

只要一切好好地再平凡也不會有怨言 ;)

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大學大二生活就這樣結束

其實開始不捨 雖然還有兩年 但畢竟已經呆在台灣三年 還是有一定感情

開始擔心兩年後 畢業 過後去路到底是什麽?

一片迷茫......

繼續到別的國家走走升學 or 回國當老師之類的.

突然也很想回到小學中學無憂無慮生活

至少不用怕到底社會是什麽? 面對什麽?

雖然家人都讓我別擔心未來的事情 可是何不緊張?

靠離社會這一步越來越靠近 越來越緊張

從來不愛人多 交際的我 對我來說壓力真的無比大!

我該怎麼辦 DX 超害怕的啦!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

do or not

always talk to myself before any reaction dont unrequited love

may be its just a sweet misunderstanding ;)

WELL, i'm not really care about do or not but IF really do, still considering 

or maybe with this situation its the best situation for us....

just go with the flow ❤

真心如一坨屎糞 靠腰!

想說 我自認為我對每個朋友真心真意 喜歡不喜歡我都會直接坦白

好吧 謝謝你讓我在大學生涯遇到在社會上一定會遇到的問題

讓我大開眼界 讓我懂得應付這類問題

可是我真他媽的不爽我把你當成好朋友 可是你把我那顆心意當成一坨屎糟蹋

啥小? 干!

第一次被朋友利用 第一次為這種事心痛

因為這件事我懂得站在中立的角度處理每件事

雖然不夠好可是至少我懂!

我他媽的現在一定會堤防他奶奶的雞蛋糕小人

再一次糟蹋我的心意看我如何把你們這些混蛋剁成18段!

只是想........

只是想在大學期間到更多地方闖闖

只是想在大學期間到不同地方學習

只是想在大學期間給予自己一個目標

只是想.......

我知道自己家境不允許 自己沒能力

可是有時真的想.......

人生都是需要給予自己機會闖........

爲什麽直接拒絕 還拒絕得那麼狠心

真的很傷心 很沒方向了....

508 - proud of MALAYSIAN

At least we still ONE

At least now days young people still put in their heart for this country

At least we are NOT SEPARATED!!

We are ONE MALAYSIAN

not Malay,

not Chinese,

not Indian ;)

be appreciate for everything and everyone surrounding me

while singing national anthem feel so touching and wanna cry

everyone of Malaysian on the spot sing so loud and proud of their country

i'm sure that we still love my country...

although with a very sick prime minister but we wont give up this country

【若爭取民主的過程是漫長的，那我還是會要我的子孫繼續抗爭下去!!】

這種命又不是我要的

不要再讓我有想法恨我自己 

每次做出了決定可是還是會很不甘心就這樣放棄

可是難道我想這樣嗎?

我也想要擁有我真的喜愛的

為錢煩惱這種生活真的不是我想要的

完全不是..........

完全......

random

 It has been 20 years and this is the first time i like having a plan on my mind...

WELL, honestly...taking a FINE ART as my core subject its really need lots of guts...

and also i'm so stress about students in our class is so talented and full of creativity and idea in their brain..

i'm not said that i'm talented in this subject but i'm just too lucky to get the little gene from my papa (at least i still got some things i can proud about ;D)

another stress about is in this community every family force their children to study business, accounts, science or doctors to make sure they can survive in the future with their jobs...

I should be happy and appreciate that i got a family actually very support my HOBBIES...

my mom actually didn't even concerned about my future jobs because she really do believe i can survived with my (talent)?

In order not to live up my mom and (papa) i decided to learn more about art overseas! YAY!

well, i'm still don't have the accurate target of my future life but continuous study it should bring me lots of other country characteristic and may be can get lots of idea in my art projects ;)
and travel around the whole world is also my DREAM!!
side trip while studying its also a not bad idea right?
at least this is may be counted as crazy things that i did while i'm studying and prove that i'm YOUNG!

i'm really hope that i can travel the whole world before i'm dead! fight for dreams

and i also hope that i can really get a good college in US? UK? anywhere around the Europe places and i can improve my English no matter in communicate or writing or listening 

good luck to myself :peace:

full of lucky-ness

living with huge huge love from family and friends

how lucky am I

although i'm still single :)

If i am a MILLIONAIRE then i should be nothing to be worry about...

I can pay my fees without installment

I can have a trip to those place that i really wish to amuse or may be can have a HIKE? ;)

I can shop like hell until i'm tired of it

I can learn what i like and what i really interested ❤

HOW I WISH i have just right enough money to done all those things ;(

H a P p i n e S s 墾丁 ❤

-海比尼斯 H a P p i n e S s-

enjoy big sunny day ❤

love the feel when the smell of the sun left on my skin ;)

our gentlemen's driver ;)

the guys

almost crazy while face the ocean!!

MAGOD! i love the waves i love the colour of ocean ❤

Girlsss (yess! bikini with fatty tummy!)

one of the favorite part of the hotel we live in

i'm idiot.?!

sometimes chances is just in your hand

accept or reject is just your choice

BLAMING is just a sooo stupid reaction after you decided your choice

i'm just speechless while every time you blaming beside my ears

Duhhh..!! is non of my business larhh!! okay?!

i'm just feeling i'm like a idiot that always help you notice is that any opportunity

i'm just fed up WTF?!

my lovely enrich summer

enrich summer ;)

work and work and work every week every day

non stop activities

although work is tired but face the beauty scenery all those annoyance set aside

hmmmm... considering next summer travel aboard to work ;D

YOUNG be sure to play like crazy and get lots and lots of experience 

如果生活不需要煩惱錢財那不是更快樂嗎..?

大二的費用高得我快吃不消了..

其實賺錢壓力是沒有的可是不知道爲什麽就是想把整個扛下來

真的不想媽咪再辛苦地為我賺學費雜費了..

其實再靜靜的思考著

我...選對科系了嗎..?

這種家境竟然還有膽量選那麼高消費的科系讀

我迷失方向了 QQ

愛情是什麽..?

爲什麽會讓人又愛又恨甚至不能沒有擁有過..?

一直在思考我會不會一輩子沒人要 QQ

是我一直都太強勢?

一直以來都是在保護朋友可能都給人感覺不需要或者沒必要保護我把...?

那我是不是該適當的脆弱下..?? =.=

這樣感覺超級做作...

真想知道自己會未來找到的另一半是按抓的神人竟然能把到我...

甚至還會讓我有女人的一面... XD

哈哈哈哈!!!!!!

screw you up with your damn bull shit attitude!

although we young than you, but still need to respect us right?

so.....please respect us first then only ask us to respect you..

feel fed up while LOOK at you

no mood to continue my job... grrrrhhhh!!!

為何....?

努力的在改變自己

努力的在減肥

可是漸漸的我感覺自己的性格慢慢的在改變

反而越來越憂鬱

越來越對自己沒有自信

為何......??

天天都在沉思自己的優缺點.....

把自己搞得人不像人鬼不像鬼....

阿娘喂!!!!!! -.-

在煩惱什麽..?

怎麼最近總感覺一個簡單的 “笑” 都會累.?

有時累得連笑都懶...

感覺自己快得憂鬱癥了. ==

發自內心的笑. 你到哪兒啦..?

TEMPER

WELL. my opinion although how you dislike or no mood

dont show out your BLOODY face to make ppl that surrounding you feel unhappy and uncomfortable too!

TRY to keep your temper yourself

not everyone can accept yours attitude right?!